Laying Awake

Well I have spent quite a few nights laying awake lately. My thoughts always seem to keep going even after I try to turn them off. Most of the time, for some reason, I end up thinking about my brother Brian. How he lived his life, how wonderful he was, and how much time I wasted that I could have spent with him, talked to him, called him on the phone instead of putting it off for another day when I had more time. TIME. If only I could have those days back. But they are gone. Wasted forever. And here I am, left with only memories of an amazing person whose life meant so much to so many people. Precious memories that I will treasure for the rest of my life. May I never waste another day. May I make memories for others to remember me by so that when they look back on my life, they see Jesus shining out of me. Cause that's what I see when I look at Brian's life. Rest in peace, big brother. I'll see you on the other side.